So, I haven't updated this blog of mine for about 10 months. Honestly, I sort of forgot I even had it. But the other day I was reading a blog about a friend of mine's step sister and her ups and downs and it inspired me to start blogging again. In a way it seems like therapy. Her blog address is, http://www.30saresomething.blogspot.com check it out. I love the way she writes.
Leaving off from my last post, Derby(my adopted dog-child) is wonderful. Honestly in the beginning I was a little worried on how it was going to work with her. My cats hated her, she was having anxiety issues and wouldn't let me out of her sight. She was hyper active, peeing in the floor, still very much in the puppy stage. The longer I had her the better she's gotten but I went on vacation and when I got back she has been so different. Not as hyper and needy, minds so much better. I cannot explain to you the love I have for my dog. People who don't feel this way or haven't felt this way about an animal think I'm silly. But, she really did save me. I feel like she brought light back into my life, giving me a reason to get up every day other than just going to work. She never leaves my side, and comforts me when I'm sick. She is almost human, and a better soul than some that I know. I love her so much. My cats are unfortunately living with my parents. It really bothers me and I can't hardly talk about it without choking up, because it was not my intention at all to get a dog and get rid of them. I honestly thought they'd eventually get used to her. But they haven't and they seem so happy with my parents. They get so much love and attention, a big house with a basement to roam, and my dad has completely spoiled them on wet cat food. :) shew, dads! Plus, I get to see them daily when I visit.
In June, some friends and I took off on a plane to Clearwater, FL. It was just for a long weekend and it was a lot of fun just to get away with some mature girls. All of which we're married except for me. Ha. The rain really put a damper on our beach time but we still had a lot of fun and made the best of it. Sam, my best friend who I lived with for 5 years through college was the one who put it all together. It was great being back with her with no other distractions. Not that our lives have distractions, but you know what I mean. Anyway, while we were in Florida I was on Facebook and this cute guy that I was Facebook friends with added some pictures so I decided to be a little flirty and "like" one of them. Me liking this photo prompted him to message me. We immediately were flirting back and forth and exchanging numbers. On July 4th, he asked if I wanted to go Lexington's Red, White, and Boom! It's really unlike me to just go off with people that I don't really know. For one I am not spontaneous at all, and two I am actually really shy. I've came a long way. Anyway, I told him yes, little did I know he already had a date for it but wanted to ask to see what I said! Jerk! Haha. But I'm glad he wiggled out of that, bc he now resides in Vanceburg. His name is Blake Roser. We both went to Morehead State University together in Morehead, KY. We are the same age but we really didn't know each other very well, just enough to speak to one another. I think maybe we met through a mutual friend at the time, but sadly we don't remember. He had just gotten back in June from Djibouti Africa on a deployment. Talk about timing! Anyway, to make a long mushy story shorter...we hit it off instantly. Literally, instantly. I felt oddly comfortable around him which is rare for me. I usually can't eat in front of guys for several weeks. Ha. I'm extremely strange (it used to be just people not guys, and I didn't eat lunch not even one time in middle or high school and would take crackers with me and nibble on them between classes). See. I'm a weirdo. Like I've said, I've come a long way. My shyness really was more like a handicap. Back to Blake. I felt like we were in our own little world that night, and that's just how I wanted to be. The next day we talked and messaged each other all day. It was a really hard time in my family bc my aunt Becky had just passed away. She was one of the most rare loving people on Earth. Heaven truly gained an angel. It was hard, and Blake was just making it easier. I was sitting in the funeral home, and he sent me a picture and a long message about how he was praying for me. PRAYING FOR ME! I honestly have dated some really nice guys, with good morals that come from good families but I cannot think of any one of them that told me they were praying for me. He was genuine about it. In that moment, I realized he was already different. They say when you meet the right person, that you'll know. I have thought I met that person a few times. Haha. But now I see the difference. Maybe it's timing, maybe it's maturity, maybe it's God and just meant to be but whatever it is, is what I hope everyone can have. He completely lights my life, makes me feel beautiful even when I'm not at all, he loves Derby just as much as I do and he really wants to do things that make ME happy. Not just what make him happy, and to be honest that's a big change for me. We've been together for 6 months now and in one way it seems like so much longer and in another it all seems so new. I don't want to make you roll your eyes anymore, or gag or whatever it is your doing. Just know this, I am broke, stressed easily, anxious, 29, and a few other things I won't mention but I am the happiest I've ever been. Having a house is nice, but not having anyone in it when you come home isn't. People take relationships for granted. It's really genuinely awesome to have someone to just have dinner with, watch a movie with, ask how my day is, put up a Christmas tree with, etc. That saying about finding your other half and feeling completed, well it's true and if you haven't found that, don't settle. If you have found it but the spark needs to be lit again, find a way for it to be. Sure all the lovey dovey stuff fades away, I'm not saying that I think it's all roses and unicorns from here. But whatever the bad stuff is, I know I have someone to go through it with me and that helps me sleep at night.
The same weekend I met Blake, I turned 29. Although that was a pretty great birthday present, I honestly cannot believe I am in my LAST year of my thirties. Are you joking? Do I look 29? I definitely don't act it (haha). Other then gaining some weight, my girls are still perky, I don't really have any lines on my face, I still have a young voice, I don't drink coffee, I still like lucky charms, my parents are still my best friends, storms are still scary, I won't watch scary movie, I just don't feel like I've gotten any older. I see kids that were truly CHILDREN that are now taller than me. It's so weird. Everyone around me is having babies. I think I'm destined to be last. Maybe my friends kids will be around to babysit my kids? Right? Good idea? But for real, I cannot remember a time where I didn't love dolls, and Barbies. My entire childhood was playing mom, naming my 6 kids, and my imaginary boyfriend who ironically looked a lot like Ashley Cooper, my neighbor boy down the street. I've been collecting wedding magazines since I was sixteen, that is not an exaggeration. I know it's semi-cray. But I'm okay with that. It's who I am. It took a few broken hearts for me to realize that I can do all the dreaming and planning of a wedding that I want but it will never make a marriage. So, although I still hope to have a wedding, I don't obsess like I used to. But anyway, my point is...I always though I'd be first. First for marriage, and babies. But I'm definitely on my way to being last. I'm a top contender for it. I know I know, all in Gods time. But for real I am ready.
Shew, I can't believe I just said that out loud, er.....wrote that out loud!? Confessions of Sarah.
So what else has my life consisted of since my last update...
We celebrated my grandmas 87th birthday in August (I feel so blessed).
Willow my cousin-niece (she's really my cousin but more like a niece) is growing like a weed. Her hair is a beautiful orange. I say orange bc it simply isn't red and I don't understand why we call red heads redhead when they are technically orange heads. Just saying. She says my name like "sewah" which makes my heart melt every time. This coming April, she will be 2! On that same day my momma will be 66! That 100% freaks me out and if she knew I put her age in here she'd kill me (sorry mom you totally rock your age).
In September, we celebrated Blake's 30th birthday.
In October, me and Blake dressed up as Barbie and Ken, I'll post pics below. Hilarious and fun. The kids loved it. Blake is a troooooooper. :)
Also in October my entire family minus one...when I say my entire family I mean my parents, grandma, three aunts, 5 of my cousins, 2 uncles, and a few others + Blake went to a place we've been going since I can remember in Florida. We go to the town of St. Augustine (the oldest city in the US) and we stay a condo resort type place called. Ocean Gallery. It honestly has become like a second home and we probably should have just invested in condos there. Anyway, we went there for a week and the weather was gorgeous and perfect and we ended the week in a wedding ceremony on the beach for my aunt Paula (Willows Mimi) and my new uncle Jim Lykins (my dad's good friend and my high school teacher). It was beautiful and very exciting! I'll try to add some pics of that too.
Other than that, we've had a healthy happy year. I'm in the best place I've ever been in emotionally. I'm so so so extremely happy in all aspects of my life. I've lost 20 pounds and I'm working on losing another 10.
I'm typically going to only update this about beauty, health, decorating, and other products....but I just wanted to give you all an update on my life to get you caught up. I promise I'm going to start finding really cool things to talk about because....well, it's just fun.
FYI I realize my grammar is off , and that's how I like it.
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